well finally

Here I sit at age 55 and I believe that I finally have the beginning of understand me.  When I say that I mean what draws me to other people and to certain type of women.  I am not going into details here.  I am reminded of the phrase Bill Murray's character kept saying in his movie What About Bob, 'baby steps...baby steps'.  I am not saying I have arrived by any means.  It is like when you wake up in the morning and slightly open one eye.  That's me, I am still in bed peeking out with one eye, but I at least know if the sun is shining.